Can anything good come out of Covid-19?


Can anything good come out of a pandemic? Here are some thoughts on that.

Today marks 100 days that we have been in quarantine.  To those of you who read this blog you will know that it has not been easy.  We do not have many of the freedoms that they have in the States and in Canada, even though we are opening slowly.  I have tried to be pretty transparent about everything.  In the beginning it kind of felt like the rug was ripped out from under us.  It was like everything we have known as far as ministry goes kind of came to an end.  Suddenly.  It has been one of the most difficult and painful seasons that at this point doesn’t seem to have a finish.  BUT there is one thing that I want to make clear, and that is ….in every moment, God has been so very good. So faithful.  He has been with us through it all. Even though there are days when our emotions and the weight of it all takes our breath away, and days when we feel isolated and alone. He hasn’t left us.  He has not forgotten us. He is, was, and always will be there. He has blessed us abundantly in so many ways.

In my last post I shared how we shared the now online Bible classes to our neighborhood WhatsApp group,  and how from that, the lessons are now going out to more than 2500 schools in different areas of Honduras.  The schools then send the lessons out to each child’s home.  If it were not for the coronavirus, we woud never have had a need to go online with the Bible lessons.

Then today I received a message from our friend Breanne who has stayed with us different times throughout the years as an intern. It was easy to see even then the call of God upon her life.  She is like a second daughter to us and she brought a lot of life and energy to our house back in the day! She loves Jesus, mangoes and coconuts!  Now she is newly married and serving as a missionary in El Salvador.   Breanne was inquiring to see if she could send the Bible lessons to a neighbour girl and a Pastor she is connected to. I told her of course! She told me the Pastor was so happy to have them. So now that Pastor in El Salvador will be sending the Bible lessons to his kids program, a school he is connected to, as well as other contacts. I have no idea how many children this will impact in El Salvador…but again, this would not have happened if it were not for being in lockdown due to Covid-19.  God is totally moving and at work during this pandemic.  Once again….I am completely blown away by this. I may or may not have broke down and cried.  He continues to be so faithful and so very good!  We praise Him for the doors He is opening.

It is the same way with my Word. I sent it out, it always produces fruit. It will accomplish all I want it to and it will prosper everywhere I send it.  Isaiah 55:11

I am not going to go as far and say I think the enemy, Satan caused this pandemic. But I do believe he may have been laughing thinking he could stop the Word of God from being shared,  but instead the complete opposite has happened.  God has the final word! Seeds are being planted into the hearts of many children and we are praying for a harvest!

Be thankful in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you who belong to Christ Jesus. 1Thessalonians 5:18

Beauty from the ashes….

Here is a little testimony of what God has been doing.

As most of you know Dale and I teach Bible classes in public schools. We have an incredible Honduran staff to help us with that. Schools of hope is currently in 22 public schools and 43 kinders and four high schools. Approximately 10,000 students. Because schools are closed due to Covid-19, we have been sending Bible videos electronically.  It’s a bit of a process. First to our staff, who send the videos to the school directors, who then in turn forward them to their teachers, who then send them to the parents, who then show the videos to their children. We have had a lot of encouraging and positive feedback from this. As well as photos being sent back.




I recently told my husband that I thought our next door neighbor’s young daughter would probably enjoy the videos and we should send them on to her as well.  First I asked her mom for permission after explaining what Dale and I do, and her mom said “Of course!”  She has even asked for them when we forgot to send a lesson. We have also been sending the Bible lessons to our neighborhood WhatsApp for the children in our residencial area.  We did not know that one of our neighbors works in the public education department that oversees 2,511 educational centers in different areas of Honduras. Here in Tegus, but also in Lempira, Santa Bárbara, Cortés, Copán, Tela and Ceiba.  She has now asked our permission to forward the Bible videos to the other school centers so the children in those areas can receive the Bible lessons in their homes as well.

So while it has been rather discouraging not to be in the schools physically, and we have really missed the children, God’s Word is still being shared.  Not only in the area where we serve,  but  soon it will be shared in other areas of Honduras to thousands more children.

There are times when God’s goodness blows me away and this is one of those times. How He can take something meant for evil, death and destruction and bring beauty and life out of it.  Had we never had this difficult and painful season, we would not be posting Bible videos on WhatsApp, or sharing them with our neighbours. We would simply be doing what we have always done, taking the lessons class to class in person.  This season has been a time to try and be creative, to think outside the box.  Please pray that seeds will be sown in the hearts of children and that many will see their need for Him and accept Jesus into their hearts…

It is the same way with my Word. I send it out, it always produces fruit. It will accomplish all I want it to, and it will prosper everywhere I send it. Isaiah 55:11

Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us. Ephesians 3:20

Quarantine thoughts on El Roi…

El Roi—“The God who sees me”

This past Sunday we were able to watch part of Bethel Stratford…the church where we last served before moving to Honduras.  I didn’t realize they were going to show our video and pray for us.  What a blessing that was to start the day!  Moments after the prayer and video, our power went out and it stayed out for hours. Having no power meant missing DSM, the Spanish church we attend.  I knew when the power finally did come on I would need to prepare dinner and probably wouldn’t get around to watching the Spanish service til later that evening.

Later on in the afternoon after spending much of the day reading, and going out for multiple walks around the neighborhood, we decided to play a game of Bananagrams. We were into our second game when someone knocked on our gate.  It was my next door neighbor with two plates of food. Honduran tipico. It was so unexpected. So kind! I almost started bawling.  They had no idea how sad I was feeling inside.   Their sweet gesture was such a blessing to my life. Humbling. It meant I would not have to cook dinner. But at the same time it felt like more than that.  It felt like a blessing right from our heavenly Father.  His way of saying, “I see you.”

We have the best neighbors. This is the same couple that rallied help from all the neighbors at the beginning of the lockdown to put together bags of food to provide for all the guards. They are the same couple that took in a stray dog even though they tried but failed to find his family. I’ve watched how they take care of him. Taking him to the vet to be vaccinated, finding out he has alergies and putting him on medication. Getting him groomed. Walking him. Loving him. They named him Covid.:-)

This is the same couple that when they first built their house and moved in, I wasn’t all that sure I was going to enjoy having them next door.  For example, that one Saturday night they partied til 3:30 in the morning. I sat in church on Sunday morning tired and cranky from no sleep and plotting how I would get up early one day and wake them up at 5:00 in the morning doing my laundry. (My laundry area is outdoors.)  But then I felt convicted and thought if I did that, how could I ever hope to have good relationship with them? How could I ever talk to them about Jesus? I guess that is partly why I felt so humbled. Because I was remembering back to the beginning and how quick I was to judge them.  Now that we have had a few months of getting to know them, we have had some good conversations. For the most part we understand each other even with my broken Spanish.  I can honestly say I enjoy having them as neighbors.


Anyway…after about six hours, our power came back on. I was finally able to sit down and watch the Spanish church we attend here in Tegus.  After the worship, I listened as one of the Pastoras prayed over different people in the congregation by name…and then she mentioned the Ruttan family.  I was not expecting that at all! I had to back track to make sure I heard correctly.  I had not messaged recently asking for prayer and yet there we were being prayed for. Truly touched my heart. Once again an unexpected blessing….and once again a gentle reminder that He sees us, and we are not alone or forgotten.

Deuteronomoy 31:6 So be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid and do no panic before them. For the Lord your God will personally go ahead of you. He will neither fail or abandon you.

As difficult and at times painful as this season is, and although sometimes my emotions do get the best of me…there are a few things I am absolutely sure of. God is good. Always. He loves us extravagantly and He is faithful. I believe He is working during this season in ways we don’t see or understand.

Isaiah 55:8  “My thoughts are nothing like your thoughts,” says the Lord. “And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine. For just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts are higher than your thoughts.”

Things may change…our world may change….but He never changes.

Hebrews 13:8 Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today and forever

How has He shown you himself to be faithful in your life?

Below is a song…I pray it blesses you as much as it has me..


Quarantine thoughts on feeling overwhelmed…


We have been in quarantine for almost 75 days. I have mentioned in previous posts how we are only allowed to leave our home once every two weeks for groceries, banking ect. It’s based on the last digit of our ID number, so Dale and I each go out alone…never together because the days we can be out do not fall on the same day. How I miss going grocery shopping and what used to be normal, simple things like running errands with my husband.

A couple of weeks ago were really difficult. Both Dale and I struggled with a deep sense of sadness…a heaviness. A sense of desperation and hopelessness.  I felt like I was in a dark pit and I really struggled to find joy or any sense of purpose. I have been trying to be encouraging by posting scriptures to my Facebook feed every day because I feel like that is what God wants me to do.  I  want to be a light and encourage people to look to the Lord and not focus on the pandemic.  I do believe with all my heart that He is good and faithful and that there is a purpose in all this pain and uncertainty.  But there are times I still struggle with seeing a light at the end of something that seems to have no end in sight with nothing in the near future to look forward to because we don’t know when this will end.  Will we even be able to go home for Christmas? Will we ever to be back in the schools? What will our future look like?

While I have been happy for friends in other countries that are slowly re opening, it has also been difficult to see when we are still in lockdown and so many people continue to suffer in Honduras. There are talks of things opening the economy here slowly…but with our cases increasing…almost 3500 as of last night, I don’t think they will be letting us out anytime soon.

Last night I was feeling overwhelmed and anxious at the seemingly hopelessness of the situation. And a longing just to go home. Be with family. But what would we do with our dog? It has been recommended to those who have residency who are planning on returning to Honduras soon,  not do it because it is mandatory they quarantine in one of the set up quarantine centers.  One of them being the stadium.  When would be able to come back if we did go to Canada for a while?

I could feel the anxiety rising within so I did the only thing I know to do when I feel that way…. I shut myself in the bedroom by myself and began to play worship music and read my Bible.. Really the only two things that can bring peace and calm when I feel so anxious and discouraged inside..

Psalm 61 :1-4 came to mind..

O God, listen to my cry! Hear my prayer! From the ends of the earth, I cry out to you for help when my heart is overwhelmed. Lead me to the towering rock of safety, for you are my safe refuge, a fortress where my enemies cannot reach me. Let me live forever in your sanctuary, safe beneath the shelter of your wings. 

Psalm 91:4 He will cover you with His feathers. He will shelter you with His wings. His faithful promises are your armor and protection.

I am so thankful for His Word that brings us inner strength when we need it most. I am thankful for His goodness and faithfulness. I am thankful that we can cry out to Him and I am so thankful that He hears us. I am thankful for the peace that only He can give…

Psalm 18:6 But in my distress I cried out to the Lord, yes I prayed to my God for help. He heard me from His sanctuary, my cry to Him reached His hears. 

Psalm 118:5 In my distress I prayed to the Lord, and the Lord answered me and set me free.

Philippinas 4:6-7 Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situarion, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all undertanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. 

Psalm 94:19 When anxiety is great within me, your consolation brings me joy.

So when you are feeling broken, overwhelmed, hopeless and anxious..when you feel like you don’t have the strength to continue on…cry out to Him. Run to Him and cling to Him; our refuge and the anchor of our souls, and don’t ever let go.

Hebrews 6:18-19 So it is impossible for God to lie for we know that His promise and His vow will never change! And now we have run into His heart to hide ourselves in His faithfulness. This where we find His strength and comfort,  for He empowers us to seize what has already been established ahead of time—-and unshakeable hope! We have this certain hope like a strong unbreakable anchor holding our souls to God Himself. Our anchor of hope is fastened to the mercy sear which sits in the heavenly realm beyong the secret threshhold

Time for a reset

A little while ago I experienced something that made me kind of feel like I was back in grade school. When I was the last picked to be on the team and the team captain took me only because he or she had to. Or back when I was in  8th grade and always ate lunch by myself while everyone else sat around in their groups of friends.

I had to work hard at protecting my heart and guarding it from offense when I felt excluded and ignored.  But here is the thing…my identity doesn’t come from the acknowledgment from others or from being included.  No. My identity is in Him. Because He is for me. And sometimes things are not as they appear. Sometimes the mind makes assumptions that are false.  At any rate I kept praying and crying out to the Lord to protect my thoughts and guard my mind from going down dark and crazy paths. I definitely did not want to become bitter or allow any offense to take root in my heart.

One thing that helped me through it was getting into the Word. It truly does help to focus on what He says rather than how I am feeling at the moment.

2 Corinthains 10:5 We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.

Romans 12 :2 Don’t conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is…His good, pleasing and perfect will.

I have read these verses so many times in my life and yet not known exactly how to do that. How do we take our thoughts captive? How do we transform our mind? How do we change or shift our thought patterns? We can’t control our thoughts… can we? I believe that we can.

Whenever we have a negative thought come into our mind, stop it in in its tracks. Focus and exchange negative thoughts for good thoughts. Begin to think differently. It truly helps if we memorize scripture and when that wrong thought comes counter it with what the Word says.

Philippians 4:8 Fix your thoughts on what is true and honourable, and right, and pure, and lovely and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise.

How many times do we let our thoughts spiral out of control and get the best of us? Our thoughts have the ability to destroy us, rob of us the life God has for us. Our thoughts can steal our peace and joy and even rob us of our health. God wants to give us peace.  Especially during this season of quarantine and when our world has been shaken.  It is so easy for us to worry or be anxious and afraid. I believe it is important to remember that while we may be in quarantine and we may feel shaken to our core…God is not surprised by any of this.  God is always at work even if we can’t see it. We can trust in the fact that He hasn’t forgotten or abandoned us.

Philippians 4:6-7 Don’t worry about anything. Instead pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all He has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hears and minds as you live in Christ Jesus. 

2 Corinthians 4:18 So we don’t look at the troubles we see now, rather fix our gaxe on things that cannot be seen. For the things we see now will soon be gone, but the things we cannot see will last forever. 

Isaiah 26:3 You will keep in perfect peace all who trust in you, all whose thoughts  are fixed on you.

Here is something to remember when negative thoughts come your way and you find yourself stuck in a negative thought pattern.  If you have God’s Spirit in you, you are not controlled by your sinful nature but by the Spirit who gives us LIFE.  You have the mind of Christ.  (Romans 8:9-10)

I was blown away the Sunday at our Spanish church after that situation I mentioned at the beginning of this post.  It was the same week! It’s so like God to do that…knowing what we need to hear and when we need to hear it. His timing; so perfect. The message spoken  by Hna Karla was so fitting to how I felt like the Lord was speaking to me and how my heart was feeling. I am going to paraphrase a small part of what was said..

Satan wants to bring you destruction  but God wants to construct you.

Satan wants death for you but God wants life for you.

Satan wants sadness for you but God wants to give you comfort.

Satan wants you to have a poverty mindest but God wants you to have abundant life.

Change the way you think, have the mind of Christ and your life will change.

Romans 8:5,6 For those dominated by the sinful nature think about sinful things, but those who are controlled by the Holy Spirit think about things that please the Spirit. So letting your sinful nature control your mind leads to death, but letting the Spirit control your mind leads to life and peace.

Quarantine thoughts on grocery day experience and twenty cents…

There was a time that I actually enjoyed shopping for groceries.  Now it feels like the most stressful and emotionally draining part of the week.  And while I like my taste of freedom, being allowed to leave my house, I now actually kind of dread that part of the week. (Technically we are only allowed out once every two weeks based on the last digit of our ID number. ) However I did go out last week using my passport and then this week (today) using my residency card…which honestly should be all I’m using so that I’m actually following the rules set in place. Truth be told, given our new normal…how stressful and strange and different everything now is….once every other week is ok with me.

Anyway I walked down to Walmart. I didn’t have to wait too long in line. Surprise! I was actually hoping to sneak in with the tercera edad (third age) because most of the time they assume I fit into that age category.  Not this time. I was told I had to wait til 9 which was only about fifteen minutes away. But between there and PriceSmart, which are side by side, there were several families holding signs asking for help. I did split what small change I had between a mom with a toddler and an elderly lady.  It was only 5 lps each.. About 20 cents CDN. But they were so thankful to receive something. Maybe even thankful to be acknowledged and not ignored.  After I finished up at Walmart I walked over to Pricesmart.

I’m not sure what was going on there but I waited in the walkers line for more than an hour behind the gate in the blazing hot sun. Though feeling a bit frustrated, I kept my mouth shut, but a couple of the other ladies were kind of getting angry at the guards about not being allowed to at least wait where there was shade. They were also not allowing any cars to enter during that time. I think what they were waiting for was the entire store to be empty before allowing anyone else in. Finally they let us pass and we were allowed into the store after having our temperature taken.  I found and purchased what I came for and began the walk home.

The little old lady I gave money to earlier on was still out there. An hour and a half later. She waved and I could tell by the way her eyes lit up that she was smiling beneath the mask she wore.  Happy to see me. “Hola hermana! Dios le bendiga!” (Hello sister! God bless you!)
I walked home and once again started bawling once in my house…picturing the sweet older lady, so friendly,  smiling and waving.  She was truly thankful and truly joyful over what was such a little and insignificant amount…twenty cents.

Quarantine thoughts on privilege vs blessing

This is yet another post that is extremely difficult to write and at this point I don’t know if I will actually publish it. I have been ruminating about these things for days now, trying to process everything and I am really struggling with it all. Writing is for me a way to process and sort through my thoughts…so for what it is worth….

This past Friday was my day out. The day I was allowed out of the house based on my ID number.  As usual I walked. This was going to be the year I finally got over my fear of driving in this country. But with our car being so unreliable, we never know when it will break down especially if it has to idle for too long while waiting in line to get into Walmart for example. A friend has kindly offered me her car…but again fear gets in the way…even though this would be the perfect time to start.

I have mentioned before that we live about a twenty minute walk to the Walmart and Pricesmart. We have to pass under a bridge where there is a police checkpoint, where the police check your ID and make sure you are following the rules. However as I neared the bridge I saw something new. Families holding large cardboard signs asking for help because they are hungry.  My heart! I didn’t feel right about giving them cash…and at the same time if I did have food on me at the time, how does a person give to one family and not the other? So even though I saw them, I continued walking, but my heart was in pieces.

I continued on to Pricesmart. I didn’t have a lot of cash on me. Only enough to purchase what I thought we needed. Only what I thought I could carry home. I knew I would need to make another trip out later on, because unlike the week before, there were no produce stands that day on the sidewalks.

As I neared the entrance to my neighborhood there was a family that I am aquainted with standing there by the road with their cardboard signs asking for help.  They live in the small wooden structures on the hill beside our neighborhood.  I have talked with a few of them while out for my walk. I have joked with some of the women about being super strong while they carry large buckets on their heads with no hands, to collect water because they have no running water in their homes. I sadly do not know any of their names but any of our communication has always been friendly. Recently I asked  one young mom how many people live on that hill, and she told me there are actually twenty five people who live there. All family. Dale and I have given them food when we felt in our hearts to do so. Even so, seeing some of them standing there, asking for help…how could I just walk past when I have relationship with them? How could I simply smile and acknowledge them, wish them a good morning and then do nothing while my arms are loaded down with healthy food? I thought of that verse in James.

James 2;14-16 What good is it dear brothers and sisters, if you say you have faith but don’t  show it by your actions? Can that kind of faith save anyone? Suppose you see a brother or sister who has no food or clothing, and you say, ” Good-bye and have a good day! Stay warm and eat well,” but then you don’t give that person any food or clothing. What good does that do?

So, I shared with them some of my groceries. Although honestly with twenty five people I am not sure how much it actually would have helped.  Yet they were so grateful.


Then with a heavy heart, I  began the walk up the hill home and literally cried the whole way.  I felt so broken. I couldn’t stop crying for a long time after.  It just felt unbearable.  I felt challenged in so many ways. There is so much need all around us. People who normally work to feed their families who can work no longer, because the virus shut everything down…people’s livelihood, their only means of supporting their families. I don’t believe that people would be out there asking for help if they didn’t need it. Can you imagine how humbling it must be? And yes there have always been those who have asked for help in this city…but not in our area and times are different now..there is way more need. More hunger.

We have been able to help out at different times when we have been made aware of specific needs…but in a way I guess it is different when you are face to face with it, when you are standing but a few feet away and looking into their eyes.

Later on I asked one of the guards about that family on the hill. I told him I worried about them having enough food.  He did tell me that they are receiving help from the military…but that there were 11 children that live there. Eleven little kids!

I felt challenged because I have posted or blogged about the ways that God has blessed us. Like the neighbour dropping off machateadas a couple times, or the fruit truck showing up at just the right time when we didn’t know how we were going to get food, or Dale being offered a ride home after the car broke down and the ice cream not melting. Or Dale finding the instant coffee so I could make a fancy whipped coffee drink.

Dale and I live in a safe neighborhood. Our home is comfortable. And even though there are times when things have been tight, we have never lacked for anything. We do feel blessed. And there is nothing wrong with these things in and of themselves. But in a way it feels a bit like privilege because I happened to be born in a different country. I have never known what it is like to stand on a street corner asking for food, I have never gone without food for days on end unless I was intentionally fasting. So I have felt a little guilty or frivalous posting about such things that may seem like a luxury when there are people who are desperately hungry. People who don’t even have beans and rice….

Psalm 9:18 But the needy will not be ignored forever; the hopes of the poor will not always be crushed.

Quarantine thoughts on peace and brokenness

Isaiah 26:3 You will keep in perfect peace all who trust in you, all whose thoughts are fixed on you.

I just want to encourage you with this verse. To not focus so much on the storm that is going on in the world.  There are so many what ifs, so much uncertainty. And if that is where our focus lies, if our eyes are only on the storm and only on what the media is saying, and their predictions, we will quickly spiral into anxiety, fear and despair.  The voices in the storm will drown out the voice of God.  They will speak louder. Because this is something that we have never faced before, there are so many unknowns.  Things  change every day.  But these things are not unknown to God.  He is in control. He is the only sure thing in all this. Unchanging. The same yesterday, today and forever.  He will see us through. He will fill us with his peace if we cry out to Him, if we trust in Him.  If we fix our thoughts on Him, and His goodness, and all that we know to be true about Him, He will keep us in perfect peace.  Meaning He will attend to us, take care of us, hold us and sustain us. No matter what the future holds, we can rest in knowing we are held by Him during this storm. It doesn’t mean that we will no longer have times where we feel afraid or moments of sadness….but we will be able to bring it back in again and just rest in Him and the inner peace and joy that only he can give.

Psalm 94:19 When anxiety was great within me, your comfort brings me joy.

So let’s dig deep and get into the Word. We have the time now. Now that we are all isolated in our homes.  Memorize scripture and say them out loud. I have talked about this in another post a couple months ago or so. And I hesitate to share this but I feel like maybe God was preparing me for this time at the beginning of the year.  I felt led to memorize a lot more of the Word..not just the verses and in return say them out loud. (Faith comes by hearing) I remember asking God at the time…why now?  I heard very clearly from Him at the time and it kind of shook me up.  It was not an audible voice but just that sense in my Spirit and I just knew it was Him. He told me that I would need them in the days ahead.  I remember asking the Lord “what does that even mean?” I didn’t hear an answer back. Not long afterwards, Dale and I went through a trial where  we both felt wounded by the actions of others. Broken. It was so difficult. I thought that was what the Lord had been talking about. Now I realize it was this storm…(or maybe for what yet lies ahead) that he was trying to prepare me for.  We draw strength from his Word. His Word brings comfort,  life and peace to whatever situation we face.  So find verses that speak to your situation and memorize them so that they settle deep in your heart. I encourage you to read Psalm 91 every day and declare it over your homes, your family and your life.

Honestly I feel like the last few months or even year has been a season of brokeness in my life. It’s been months of the Holy Spirit showing me areas in my life that I need to work on. Usually through a devotional or a sermon that was so on point that there was no other explanation but it had to be God.  I remember one Sunday morning sitting in church the week of our trial I mentioned above. We were both feeling so broken by the events of that week and Dale commented afterwards he felt like that sermon was one we needed to hear.  It was on stewarding your thoughts, or I guess taking control of your thoughts. It was so timely. It also kind of wrecked me. I knew that God saw us. He heard our cries, but he didn’t want us to hang onto it or it woud destroy us.  I remember coming home and weeping afterwards and just leaving it with the Lord and trusting  him to mend the broken pieces and change the attitudes of our hearts, that we would be able to let things go when the memories came up. All that being said, I think it’s safe to say all of us feel a little broken by life right now.  May we not all allow the brokeness to make us bitter. May we allow him to heal those broken places and change us to be more like Him. From the inside out.

Romans 12 :2 Don’t copy the behaviour and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God’s will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect. 

Also we may not be able to worship in our churches anymore…and that is probably the thing I miss the most.  However, there is nothing preventing us from worshiping in our homes. I have begun doing this and let me tell you that those times have been so rich. There is something about worship music that makes me feel close to the Father and strengthened.  And then there is prayer. Talk to God. Praise him for all he has done. Pour out your heart to him. He hears us when we cry out to Him. We can be real with him. Vulnerable. He wants us to draw close to him, to his heart. He wants to have a relationship with us. Oh how He loves us.

Zephaniah 3:17 For the Lord your God is living among you. He is a mighty saviour. He will take delight in you with gladness. With his love he will calm all your fears. He will rejoice over you with joyful songs. 

Psalm 91

Those who live in the shelter of the Most High will find rest in the shadow of the Almighty. This I declare about the Lord. He alone is my refuge, my place of safety, he is my God and I trust him. For he will rescue you from every trap and protect you from deadly disease. He will cover you with his feathers. He will shelter you with his wings. His faithful promises are your armor and protection. Do not be afraid of the terrors of the night, nor the arrows that flies in the day. Do not dread the disease that stalks in the darkness, nor the disaster that strikes at midday. Though a thousand may fall at your side, though ten thousand are dying around you, these evils will not touch you. Just open your eyes and see how the wicked are punished. If you make the Lord your refuge, if you make the Most High your shelter, no evil will conquer you, no plague will come near your home. For he will order his angels to protect you wherever you go. They will hold you up with their hands, so you won’t even hurt your foot on a stone. You will trample on lions and cobras, you will crush fierce lions and corbras under your feet! The Lord says I will rescue those who love me. I will protect those who trust in my name. When they call on me, I wil answer. I will be with them in trouble. I will rescue them and honour them.  I will reward them with a long life and give them my salvation.

Ice cream and an angel in a blue truck…

Many know of our car issues for last number of months. The night the country was put in lockdown… I forget how many days ago now…our car broke down on the hwy on the way home from church. We called a friend whose boyfriend came to the rescue and towed us home. Our mechanic came sometime later and determined it was the belt and he gave us a temporary fix.

So, anytime we have needed to go anywhere we have walked. Last week when it was my day to be out, (based on the last digit of my ID number) I walked back and forth twice to get our groceries. One way is twenty minutes. I normally love to walk, love to get my steps in, so normally it’s not an issue, but it has been sooo hot now for a while now.. and groceries are heavy.

Then today….it was Dale’s day out. He needed to go a couple places that were too far to walk so he had no choice but to take the car.. And he bought ice cream! Something we have been craving since this all started. But guess what happened? On the way home..the car broke down. He had to just leave it and begin the thirty five minute walk home…with the ice cream and a few other items he had bought.

But then God sent an angel in a blue pick up truck who pulled over and kindly offered Dale a ride to our neighbourhood.  Meaning Dale didn’t pass out from the heat and the ice cream didn’t melt.

A short while later our friend’s boyfriend was able to tow our car back to the house.  Our mechanic is able to come on Friday when it is the day he is allowed to be out.  Also the hardware stores are now open again so if he needs any parts he could most likely find them there.

There is one other thing.  One of those extra things he brought home was instant coffee.  I have really been wanting to try making Dalgona Coffee. I keep seeing it on my instagram feed and I was not able to to find it at the grocery store when I was out a few days ago.  I honestly didn’t think you could even buy instant coffee in Honduras. I figured I would have to wait til we went to Canada at Christmas…if we can even go at that time. Dale is not a coffee person at all yet surprisingly he found it…and I was able to whip up the delicious iced coffee drink.

So even in the midst of all this, where things go wrong and not like we plan.. there is always something to be thankful for! There is always hope…even in a pandemic.  God shows us that he sees us and that He cares. Even about the little things like ice cream and dalgona coffee.   He is faithful and He is always good.

Numbers 6:24-26 May the Lord bless you and protect you. May the Lord smile on you and be gracious to you. May the Lord show his favor and give you his peace. 

Dios Inagotable…

Dios Inagotable..

Last night I saw a post on Social Media that really resonated with me.

En medio de esta pandemia hay un lugar por el inagotable armor se nuestro Señor Jesuscristo que nos provee esperanza, paz, y salvación….Pastora Marta Lanza

To translate it is saying that in the middle of this pandemic there is place for the inexhaustible love of our Lord who provides us with hope, love and salvation.

Inexhaustible. I love that word.  I don’t know that in the English language I have ever heard that exact word as an attribute of the Lord and yet how true it is.

Definition of inexhaustible… An amount or supply of something that is unable to be used up because existing in abundance.

Isaiah 40:28-31 Have you never heard? Have you never understood? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of all the earth. He never grows weak or weary. No one can measure the depths of His understanding. He gives power to the weak and strength to the powerless. Even youths will become weak and tired, and young men will fall down in exhaustion. But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength. They will sour high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint.

I’m thankful today that even though we may be weary, feel exhausted, filled with cares or concerns about today or our unknown future, that God never tires. Not even during this pandemic when it seems our entire world has been turned upside down and there doesn’t seem to be a near end in site.

I admit I have really struggled this week with keeping myself composed. I’ve done a lot of weeping. Not so much out of fear…but just a deep sadness. Brokeness. And yet I know I am not alone in this. The whole world is going through this at the same time…where all that we have known  and trusted in has been stripped away.  I do believe that God is using this time though…for us to lean into Him. To draw closer to Him. To give us his strength so that we would depend and trust only on Him when everything else has fallen apart.

He never grows weary or tired  like we do. He never, ever “runs out of steam.” His love and faithfulness to us is inexhaustible.  Inagotable. It never runs out and never ends. Always gives us strength.  Always gives us peace. There is always hope. So may we learn to trust. May we look to him. May we find salvation through Him. May we learn to find our rest in Him.

Psalm 62:2  TPT He alone is my safe place; his wrap around presence always protects me. For he is my champion defender; there’s no risk of failure with God. So why would I let worry paralyze me, even when troubles multiply around me.