Finding the time
“Boy, somebody sure needs to go spend some time with Jesus”
Ouch. His words; my husband’s words to me one morning recently, stung. And yet his words rang true. I knew it and so did everyone around me. I had been grumpy. I had been miserable. Tired. Worn. Inside my emotions were a mess. I felt so on edge ; like at any moment I would either explode or burst into tears. My joy…dissipated. My children were constantly fighting and at each other and quite frankly it was really getting on my nerves. I couldn’t take it anymore. Everything was getting to me; not just bickering children. Dirty footprints on the floor, handprints on the wall, a puppy who will not learn to do his business outside every time….the stress was building.
I knew I needed that quiet time with the Lord, my heavenly Father, the one who can quiet my heart and still my soul when everything around me is a mess. I was craving that time desperately. Somewhere I had gotten out of the habit of those daily quiet times in the morning. And now because of that time not spent, my life was out of sync…out of balance. Oh, I still talked to Him throughout the day here and there…or at bed now and then. How I knew I needed more and I knew God required more from me than a few minutes at the end of the day when I was too quiet to concentrate on what I was reading in His word and too tired to listen.
Back in Canada that time for me was in the early hours of the morning before my kids awoke and before my daycare children began to arrive. I would arise at 5am or earlier, sit down with my coffee and my bible and spend that time reading His word, and talking to Him in the still of the morning. How I missed those times! Now, however 5 am is no longer still, quiet or peaceful. My kids are getting out of bed at that time and to be honest, it’s anything but peaceful. Chaotic would best describe that time of day. Quite often they are at each other from the get go with snide comments poking each other. So lately there has been a lot of grumpiness in the morning. I knew I needed a new routine.
John 15:4 I am the vine and you are the branches. Those who remain in me, and I in them will produce much fruit, for a part from me, you can do nothing. Anyone who does not remain in me is thrown away like a useless branch and withers.
John 15:11 I have told you these things so that you will be filled with joy! Yes your joy will overflow.
So, you see if I am missing out on those times with my heavenly father and not communing with him, how can I expect to hear from Him? How can I expect to be joyful or at peace? How can I expect to be fruitful? How can I expect to know Him if I am not taking the time to read His word every day, talk to Him and listen to what He may speak to my heart? It’s so important. For my peace and the peace in my family.
The other day after the children left for school, Dale and I went to the Villa Olimpica for our daily walk/run. Afterwards I sat on the couch with my coffee, bible and devotional; deciding that would now be my time each day. My little puppy at my feet was desperately trying to get up on the couch with me, so I picked his little squirmy body up. Right away he curled up on my lap and fell asleep. He just wanted to be with me. At that moment in my mind I saw myself curled up on the lap of God. He loves us so much. He delights in us. We are His children. His sons and daughters. He wants us to find our rest in Him to turn to him each day; not just when life gets out of control. Are we desperate for Him? Do our hearts long just to curl up on our Father’s lap where there is perfect peace and rest? Like a little child curled up on their Daddy’s lap…If we are not spending that time with Him, we can’t expect to be at peace. We can expect to truly know Him. Or now His heart. Lysa Terkeurst says in her book What happens when women say yes to God…” The more you practice His presence the more you will find it” So true!
Have you ever felt like that? Emotional, stressed; like life is spinning out of control? Like me, have you been skipping devotions? Life is busy and the last thing Satan wants is for us to drawn near to Christ. He might remind us of things we should be doing around the house, an derrand we need to run or a workout we should be doing….anything really to shift our focus from spending time with Him. Can I just encourage you to take a little time each day reading His words, talking to Him and listening ? If you seek Him you will find Him! ( Jer29:13,14a…”If you look for me wholeheartedly you will find Me. I will be found by you.” says the Lord)
Below is a song that most of you will know; but it says what is on my heart right now..